This is about faith, and I am writing about it. That is quite an irony because at this point I should have been the last person in the world to do so, but here I am, and I’ll be doing it because it is in my hands. So if I were writing it with my usual energy, or on any other day—like in the normal rhythm of my life—I would have explained the meaning of Faith by ‘The Weeknd‘. That song channels the very right energy that sometimes I feel about faith, that energy I most often channel within myself, inside, and radiate outward as well.
It’s a long melancholy about losing this faith along with this life. Just very slowly and unbeknownst to us, how this life is drifting apart—I believe that so is faith. It is somewhere very far, far away. It’s like it exists on the other side of the river and I am on the opposite bank, and that distance feels insurmountable. I can see it there. I just raise my finger and reach toward it, but I can never touch it. I do feel the same air as on that side, I do breathe the same atmosphere, but we don’t share the same beliefs, and so we remain on opposite ends, I believe. So that Faith by ‘The Weeknd‘ becomes a whole chartered persona, a complete combination of words, a jumble of chords which explain perhaps what faith has done to them, perhaps what faith becomes after some time, perhaps how faith continues to exist within them.
But today, instead, I’ll keep it different. Because today I heard a voice—somebody called me and asked me ‘to have faith‘.
To.
Have.
Faith.
Somebody said that I should have faith. Somebody spoke these words to me so easily, and she hoped that I would do so. But I had all the options not to. Yet here I am, decided to honor her words and to have faith. That’s a very different, difficult, and unique feeling. It’s such a singular sensation where somebody is the strangest person in the world to you, but you would still believe in them. Because that’s the thing about strangers, I guess. You have every option not to believe them, but you still choose to believe them. Because you have never known them, and somehow you just believe that they will not be as strange as the closest ones sometimes are.
Somebody told me that it is quite a thing to have faith. And that she believes in it. And that she has lived her life through it. Now, I am not quite sure about it, because this was her life. And I don’t know if two people’s lives could be the same. But I would still believe it, I would still keep it. And I would still let it stay with me, let it be with me. And I would just carry this faith.
So today I will write this article about faith, about having faith. Sometimes when it is not obvious, we should believe in the oblivion. Sometimes when we can’t see, we should close our eyes and have this faith. Sometimes when we can’t fulfill our promises, we should just have this faith and try to honor that commitment. And that is why, and that is how, I think we can maintain faith.
Faith could be that very last thread attached to that point which prevents us from falling. Faith could be that one moment in life where you have every desire to jump, but you just choose to stay. You just choose to live. You just choose to endure. You just choose to believe. You just choose to have faith.
I think just like how flowers wither with time, some people’s faith does too—some people’s beliefs too. I think if this faith demands us to cross this river, even knowing that it might drown us in its depths, we should just have that faith and cross it. Because yes, on the other end of it, we will find something. If not what we are looking for, at least something which will help us live more fully.
Having this faith is also that small act of kindness which we can show ourselves. It is that one graceful act that we owe to our lives after so much time. Because this life has been doing so many things for us. And I think the only way we can give back to it is just by having this faith—that it will turn true, that it will turn better, that it will turn in positive ways, that it will unfold in good ways. That it will fulfill this promise, that it will honor this faith, that it will let us cross this river, that it will let us climb that mountain, that it will let us soar through the air, that it will let us open our eyes, that it will let us breathe freely, that it will let us feel the liberation, that it will let us live, that it will let us be who we are.
That we might not lose this faith this time that we have shown it. This time it will come around and give us a smile back to us.
